los angeles has poor air quality

ok, so LA isn’t the best place for me. and i think i’ve always know that. this is gonna get deep (omg, no way! eliza getting deep?).

let’s get some facts into play here. in my opinion, Los Angeles is a weird place. people come to LA to chase dreams. whether that dream is a red carpet or a person, i feel like most people here are chasing something, and that’s awesome. however, with constant running, there is absolutely no room to breathe (pun possibly intended because the air quality is so terrible). i started really chasing this sing song thing about two years ago, and it wasn’t until i moved to north carolina that i felt like i could do the music business AND breathe at the same time. LA does not stop. ever. which is cool, because i don’t want to stop either. ever. but honey, people need to breathe. because i was so accustom to LA and the lack of oxygen that was reaching my lungs, i failed to see the problem.

i am now home in Los Angeles on a break from school, and i’m preparing for a big single release (single is out january 18, i have to plug it, i’m sorry). i am completely aware that this isn’t my forever home, but it’s where i need to be right now.

i feel okay. this city holds so many memories. i mean, damn, it holds my childhood.

and i know it holds more, but i also know that i can leave, and discover more in a variety of places. isn’t that cool? it’s such a calming feeling to know that i can find other places to breathe if i feel like i’m not getting enough oxygen. this is an idea i didn’t understand for so long. i was so caught up in this town that i failed to see the beauty outside of it (also another plug but the single coming out 1/18 is about this feeling ok plug over goodbye). i can find more people to love if i feel like i’m not around the right people. i can find more music to make if i feel like i’m not making enough. you get the point.

happy new year, or whatever the new year saying is. i’m off to work out in this poor air quality, and dammit, i’m excited about it.